Monday, October 25, 2010

2010 - Dreams and Self-Forgiveness

Today I had a dream about me and my partner having sex when suddenly my mother came into the room and left when she saw us. I didn't want her to see us so I felt a bit embarrassed and, well, just caught in the act.

The point I see with this is that I am still usually participating in sex from a point of self-interest, wanting to experience the release of sexual energy, which I still allow to build up and then let it influence me instead of me taking self-responsibility in every moment to stop participating in everything that originates from the mind and is energy-based.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in sex from the point of self-interest and desire to build up and release sexual energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in sexual thoughts and imagination instead of me being here in the breath with the physical.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be guided by sexual energy/desire instead of me taking self-responsibility in every breath here in self-direction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define sex as a way to get an orgasm and to participate in sex because of experiencing an orgasm.

I forgive myself for accepting an allowing myself to have a want/desire to give my partner the best orgasm and to participate in judgment and comparison.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define sex according to porno videos and images and to accept that definitions as the way sex should/must look like.