Monday, July 30, 2012

Day 24 - Sly remarks and waking up


Reactions to sly remarks:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get irritated whenever I see/perceive that someone is making sly remarks about me, instead of breathing and applying self forgiveness and self-corrective application.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish/want/desire to have my revenge and get even with someone who I see/perceive makes a sly remark about me or deliberately wants me to react. I realize that I am creating my own reaction and that I am responsible for it. When and as I see myself wishing/wanting/desiring to have my revenge and get even with someone who make sly remarks about me or deliberately wants me to react - I stop and I breathe. Instead I apply self-forgiveness and self-correction and do not participate in such games.

I commit myself to make a note for myself when and as I see myself reacting to a point someone is speaking about to investigate it and see why did I react and apply self forgiveness and self correction.

I can sleep a bit longer character:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get annoyed and irritated when the alarm wakes me up in the morning instead of opening me eyes and being here, breathing, and turning it off.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think "oh f**k it is time already" and "do I have to get up already?" as I turn off the alarm, instead of being here and focusing on my breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to imagine a picture of me lying in bed softly and warmly covered and in this to desire to stay like that, instead of being here in the breath, ready to move and direct myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think "it is ok to rest a bit longer and no reason to get up immediately" and "it is so cold and unpleasant outside the cover" as I sit up or lay awake, instead of realizing that within such backchat I make the resistance to get up even stronger for myself. When and as I see myself thinking  "it is ok to rest a bit longer and no reason to get up immediately" and "it is so cold and unpleasant outside the cover" - I stop and breathe and I get up and enjoy directing myself her in the breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that waking up and getting up in the morning is hard and frustrating, instead of realizing it is a simple act of opening one's eyes and getting out of bed here in the breath, enjoying directing self in the physical.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive coldness and the feeling of cold air as it touches my skin as something horrible/unpleasant/undesirable and irritating, instead  of simply being here in the breath and get my clothes on.

I commit myself to stay here in the breath as I wake up in the morning and apply self-forgiveness and self-correction if any thoughts come up and enjoy directing myself here in the breath as I get up and move myself, focused on the breath, to dress up.