I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold on to the desire of secretly looking at women in order to experience the energy of arousal, attraction and desire.
energy within myself that I could use for an orgasm during masturbation or sex.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to let go of the wish/want/desire to look at women just to create a sexual energy inside myself.
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize and understand that I am with this abusing women for my energetic self-interest where I judge and compare them and only see them as sexual objects instead of living beings. When and as I see myself wishing/wanting/desiring to secretly look at woman for energy - I stop and breathe. I realize and understand that I with this allow abuse where I only see women as sexual object and pictures instead of real living beings. Therefore I commit myself to no more accept and allow myself to look or wish/want/desire to look at woman secretly in order to create energies of arousal.