Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Day 132 - Making other's judgments my own & fear of people with expectations

Today a passed some activists standing by the booth that were collecting signatures for a cause that I already defined as negative and so judgments came up about them and also fear of someone wanting something from me.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to judge people standing by the booth according to my predefined judgments of the cause itself as being negative, worthless and unnecessary. When and as I see myself judging people according to my preconceived ideas and judgments - I stop and breath. I realize that I don't have to judge anyone as this only creates emotions. Therefore I commit myself to stop all judgement towards other people and to see them simply as human beings like myself.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed to judge the cause as negative, worthless and unnecessary and to through this judgment create negative emotion of anger towards it. When and as I see myself creating the emotions of anger based on judgments - I stop and breathe. I realize and understand that I do not have to judge and be angry at anything because this does not solve anything, it only creates emotions. I commit myself to be aware of any judgments towards people and things that come up within me and to stop all such judgments with self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to take others judgments of something / someone as my own and simply believe them. When and as I see other people making judgments about people / things and me believing them and taking them as my own - I stop and breathe. I realize and understand that I do not have to believe and take other people's judgments as my own because I only create beliefs and emotions with this. Therefore I commit myself to be aware when other's make judgments so that I do not take them as my own.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of strangers who want something from me. When and as I see myself reacting with fear to someone who I perceive wants something from me - I stop and breathe. I realize that I do not have to fear anyone who wants something from me because there is no point in the emotions of fear as it only creates energy for the mind. Therefore I commit myself to be aware of situations where I perceive that someone will want something from me and to not be afraid of such situations, instead I forgive the fear, take a few slow breaths and direct myself in relaxed in breath.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to accept the fear of talking to someone / a stranger who I perceive will want something from me by looking away from the person, trying to avoid the confrontation of the fear, instead of just not accepting the fear in the first place. When and as I see a fear of confronting someone who I perceive will want something from me coming up - I stop and breathe. I realize that I do not have to create and accept the fear of others who I perceive will want something from me because this emotion of fear is useless anyway. Therefore I commit myself to be aware of moments where this fear comes up and forgive it immediately and direct myself to not accept it, to not try to look away or avoid confrontation, but to instead direct myself in breath and do the opposite by confronting it when reasonable.